Pass The Painkillers Please

I've only had a migraine maybe half a dozen times in my life, but boy when I do....Monday was one of those days. And unfortunately for me, it was also a day that schools were closed.

As most parents of children with severe disabilities know, life doesn't get put on hold just because we get sick. I've often wondered which was harder - (1) when my children are sick, (2) when I am sick, or (3) when we all are sick. And the answer, at least for me is (2), when I am sick. The kids are still their normal unique, needy selves but my reserves are pretty much depleted.

So I took a ton of ibuprofen,which I am not supposed to do because I am allergic to it, but it is the only thing that will even begin to dull the migraine pain. The headaches have been so infrequent that going to a doctor to get prescription meds seems like overkill. Fortunately the ibuprofen helped a bit, and once the kids were in bed and tended to, I headed to bed myself...

So how about you? What are your strategies for getting through the sick times and still taking care of your children's needs?

Doctor? I Wonder...

MALPRACTICE - failure of a professional person, as a physician or lawyer, to render proper services through reprehensible ignorance or negligence or through criminal intent, especially when injury or loss follows.

Brooke, the daughter of one of my best friends, recently switched from having a G-tube to having a GJ-tube. For several months, Brooke had been experiencing a great deal of pain whenever she was fed. The doctors did a lot of testing but couldn't come up with a reason for the pain. Their solution was to switch to the GJ-tube.

It sounded like an ok idea, and Brooke does have much less pain using it over the G-tube. But, it comes with a major problem - it gets clogged a LOT. And unlike with a G-tube, a parent or caregiver can't change it. Changing the GJ-rube requires a trip to the hospital or medical office for a radiologist to change it and make sure it is positioned correctly.

Seeing as the tube gets clogged almost weekly, that is a huge headache, and not to mention, lots of time off from work for Brooke's Mom (unpaid time off which for a single mom is devastating.) But if it makes life better for Brooke, her mom is all for it.

So what's the problem? Well, this past Sunday, the tube became clogged again. But a call to the GI doc provided bad news. He and the radiologist were not going to come in on Sunday to change the tube, and Brooke would just have to wait until Monday. But since ALL Brooke's nutrition and fluids are given via that tube, that meant she would quickly become dehydrated or Brooke's mom would have to use the G-tube part and cause Brooke to experience the pain again.

To say this infuriated Brooke's Mom and the rest of us who know and love this lovely little family would be an understatement. If a doctor chooses to treat children with significant needs, and further if that doctor is the one who recommended the GJ-tube, then his job is 24/7. If he wants time off, he makes arrangements for other doctors to back him up. I still find it almost incomprehensible that this happened.

We parents of children with significant medical needs must rely on the medical community to keep our children alive and healthy. So much is beyond our control, and that is a horrible feeling just knowing that we can't make it better.

I, for one, consider this malpractice...just saying....

Not an Option...Yet

As parents of children with significant needs, we've learned to adjust to the lack of sleep, the endless hours lost from work due to doctor appointments and such, and the stares of people who don't understand. But there is one thing that I, and some of my friends, are finding hard to adjust to.

As we lift, roll, turn, and steady our children who are unable to do those things for themselves, we are wearing down our bodies. At first, it comes as a general ache, a dull pain that over the counter pain relievers can help. Then it becomes more severe, and our doctors prescribe muscle relaxers, prescription pain killers, and such. But what happens when those things no longer work?

That's where I am right now. That's where my friend, Lynnette, and several others are also.

I have carpal tunnel syndrome. Lynnette has a problem with her bicep tendon. Another friend has intense back pain. And all our doctors recommend surgery. But surgery is not an option.

My surgery for carpal tunnel can't be done arthroscopically. It would involve an incision from the middle of my palm to about 4 inches down my inner arm. It's my right hand. The hand that hooks up Ashley's G-tube for medication. The hand that draws the medication into syringes. The hand that helps feed her - wash her - dress her. A surgery that would put me out of commission just isn't an option.

The same goes for Lynnette. She, like me, is the sole caregiver for her daughter, Brooke. She is the one that feeds her through her G-tube - the one who changes her trach - the one who hooks her up to the ventilator at night - the one who lifts and turns and bathes and changes. Surgery is not an option.

Yes, I realize that we may get to a point where there is no other option but surgery, but we hope and pray that we don't get there. In the meantime, we live with the pain, knowing it won't go away but hoping it will.

The people who don't really 'get it' say isn't there someone who can help you? Well, if there are, we haven't found them. People come and go in our children's lives, but their committment is to a job - 8 hours a day and then a trip home. We're just lucky if they show up for the 8 hours (which they sometimes don't).

Family? - nope, not in my case or Lynnette's case. Hiring a nurse? - nope, already losing so much time from work that money for nursing care isn't there. I just don't know the answer.

I'm not looking for pity, and I know Lynnette and my other friends aren't either. We deal with enough pity already. But if you do have some emotion to spare, understanding would be good.

Just in pain - just sharing - just wanting a little understanding...